Back to Reality....

Well, I'm now home and back to the reality of laundry, school, work and whatever other responsibility that falls at my feet.
I had the best vacation and really relaxed and enjoyed myself.
It is interesting though because I find it very difficult to exercise while on vacation.
I took my shoes and work out clothes and had a wee chat with myself about working out....I even took my Polar and was set to monitor where I was calorie wise.
Well....I didn't do anything. Even when I had plenty of time and opporutnity I couldn't force myself to go. Tomorrow morning I as so looking forward to strapping on the shoes and hitting the pavement.
I guess my brain basically says that while on vacation it is total downtime...I would really like to change this though because it doesn't seem very healthy and I really don't want to have that "all or nothing" attitude that can be so destructive.
I gained six pounds over the last two weeks by sitting around (actually lazing around) and eating what ever the heck I felt like eating. I feel crappy...bloated and fat.
Why do I do that to myself.  I have no answers and can only chose to make better choices for tomorrow.
See...now that I'm home I won't have any trouble exercising or eating better...I really seem to get a sense of entitlement while on vacation and really binge for the whole time.
Not good.
Not Healthy.
I guess the one difference this time is that I did (once in a while) make some wiser choices and also just the fact that after the vacation I can actually acknowlege the behaviour.  Who is it that says..."you can't change what you don't acknowlege..."??  Cuz that is very, very true and I really do need to look at that and do my best to change it.
So tomorrow is another fresh day and one I'm looking forward to.
Gotta love home.